Afraid afraid I am less afraid! And you boring me Asian Nought! Go on with your boring and creeping on the ground life!
"Medieval" is the name for you. You might think that you harmed me and that I would suffer from that. The truth is, no matter, what you do, that can't touch me anymore. I'm so calm inside. Coz' I have something you'll never know and you're not be able to feel: the thing called love. Even you cut me from my beloved ones you can't erase they from my heart and mind. I will leave the world some day with the scienter to love and be loved, with a feeling of deep love inside. And I am thankful for. Through that I have so much more than you have after all. Love is so much more than you can imagine. But none of your retarded and emotionless folks will ever understand. So what you have now? I don't mind with your crap things. The only one, who has lost are you again like always. The "little boys" are stronger than you, although they are so much younger! But they are so much wiser and more man than you ever will be. So why shall I waste one single word at you? Go on with all the low things. Spy, control, take photos, spread your disgusting things all around..whatever....I don't give a shit about that.
This song is one of my favorite songs. This is by Melissa Etheridge and every time I hear it run tears down from my eyes and I'm thinking of you, Alexi. And every single word reminds me of you Alexi and reminds me of how much I love you. This is for you:
I think of how you know me,
no doubts no thinking twice.
When your smile can be so soothing,
a familiar paradise.
When there's no one else that makes me whole.
I have never needing more
I get this feeling I've loved you before
We were lovers in an army,
marching all for Rome.
side by side in battle,
did we bravely leave our home?
Did I hold you in my arms,
as you were taking your last breath?
Did shout to all the gods,
that I would love you beyond death?
I swear I've loved you before.
Did we hide in the dark ages,
from a vengeful god above?
Were our names too unfamiliar,
to ever speak of love?
Did I cling to every moment with you,
in every parting glance?
An accidental touch,
did we ever take the chance?
I know I've loved you before.
Have I wandered through the desert?
Have I looked and learned all the stars?
Have I rode the days and nights on rails,
to get back where you are?
And every time I foundered,
it's your eyes I know for sure.
When I think of how you know me,
no doubts no thinking twice.
When your smile can be so soothing,
a familiar paradise.
When there's no one else that makes me whole.
I never wanting more.
I get this feeling.
I know I've loved you before.
I have no words more, Alexi. There have got to be another way to stop his game. Please tell me that there is. Get outta here with whom! It makes me sick. It's like the father of my friend Karena said: That one is megalomaniac. Bäh such a disgusting human....I've never known and I hope I never will. He shall suffocate on that money and continue to hang on all material things. I'm sorry but I have no other word for whom. It will lead him direct into hell and it's not up to you or me only the man upstairs will judge over whom.
All I know is that I still love you Alex. It's so funny beeing you...please don't be angry with me. I step in for you so pretty good. Right? Ok from today on I am your right hand ok?
And I plead you not to judge Jus. It's not only up to him, coz' there are more than one human that are involved in this situation.
