Monsters don't sleep under your bed. They scream inside your head..

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NAME: Gloria ♂
AGE: 46
LOCATION: USA, Connecticut
STATUS: ❤ Married to the love of my life, Steve ♀
CHILDREN: Justin ♀, Maryssa ♂, Andy ♀ & Zander ♀
GRANDCHILDREN: LYELA ROSE ♂ & CALLIE MAE ♂
❤ANNIVERSARY: JULY 11TH
♛BIRTHDAY:  SEPTEMBER 24TH
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IF YOU ARE CURIOUS ABOUT WHAT I LOOK LIKE, HERE IS A BLINGEE OF ME THAT I DID FOR A CHALLENGE:  http://bln.gs/b/28zylp
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JANUARY 29, 2018

ABOUT ME: IN DETAIL

My dear mother died when I was 3 years old. My father died on my tenth birthday. The years that followed consisted of being separated from my siblings, bounced around between several homes (including a group home) that didn't want me to begin with. There was a lot of abuse, neglect and painful loneliness. I felt like I was less than everyone else. Unloveable. Disposable. Ugly.

I survived. I clawed my way through every single day until I ultimately got legally emancipated. I went to a trade school when I was 16 where I got my GED and was trained in Business/Clerical. The first few years on my own I stumbled through life. I was homeless for a period of time and trusted people way more than you should in such situations. I paid the price for that trust. I went on to study law at the University of Maine, got married and had my first of four children. THAT'S when my dreams were fulfilled. When I first looked in the eyes of my newborn son I knew that this is what I had survived for all those years. I finally had the family I had always wanted. My heart opened up bigger than I thought it could.

What followed was nothing outside of the norm. Divorced my first husband and then met the true love of my life, my current husband, Steve. But when I was around 35 years old, all of the abuse, neglect, rejection and abandonment caught up with me. Things I had not dealt with...or had the capacity to deal with, all hit me at once and basically caused a nervous breakdown. I literally stopped living. I had been a Realtor and was taking classes at the local Community College. I just stopped working and stopped going to classes abruptly. I couldn't get out of bed or leave the house. I was terrified of the world and just wanted to disappear. Every single day was a struggle to not end my life. I had 4 children at this point. Three teenagers and a pre-teen. It was ONLY because they begged me to hold on that I did. I totally believed that they would be so much better off without me. I believed I was now a burden on them and my dear husband, and if I could disappear into nothingness then everybody would ultimately be much better off. Sure, they would grieve at first, but I believed they would soon get over it and be able to go on with their lives without me and my mental illness dragging them down. Over the next couple of years there were many psychiatric medication changes, and I grew more stable, although still couldn't leave the safety of my bed. 

Then, when I was 37 years old I very nearly got my wish. I had two massive heart attacks and was life starred (transported by emergency helicopter) to Yale Hospital. I was extremely close to death, and that night I almost lost my life once again. But, I survived. I came home and found that my husband and oldest son had moved our bed down into the living room and announced that if I wasn't going to leave my bed, then I was at least going to have my family around me. It was a great thing that they did and it helped me a lot. I no longer feel suicidal, and am thankful and happy with the life I have. While my mental health has improved, my physical health has deteriorated dramatically. I am still in my bed after 12 years, and still in the living room. But I have an amazing, supportive and extremely loving family and that is more than I could ever have dreamed possible.

So, that's my story. I'm lucky. I had a happy ending. Not everyone has that and I never forget that I got every important thing that I wanted in life. A family. True love. A home to call my own. And the cherry on top is all of my wonderful friends, which includes the amazing artists I have met here on Blingee. I have so much love in my heart for ALL of my Blingee friends and that will never go away!

Thanks for listening...(or..reading!)

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AS MOST OF YOU KNOW, I CREATE E-CARDS TO SUPPLEMENT MY DISABILITY INCOME. IT'S NOT MUCH, BUT EVERY LITTLE BIT HELPS. IT WOULD MEAN SO MUCH TO ME IF YOU GUYS COULD CHECK OUT MY PORTFOLIO AND OCCASIONALLY SEND OUT ONE OF MY FREE E-CARDS. I GET PAID BASED ON THE NUMBER OF PEOPLE WHO SEND EACH CARD, SO YOU WOULD REALLY BE SUPPORTING ME WITHOUT IT COSTING YOU A CENT! HERE IS THE LINK TO MY E-CARDS:

http://www.123greetings.com/profile/RedHeadsRule/

IN THE UPPER RIGHT CORNER THERE IS A SEARCH BOX WHERE YOU CAN SEARCH FOR ANT TYPE OF CARD YOU ARE LOOKING FOR. JUST TYPE "GLORIA, BIRTHDAY" OR "GLORIA, LOVE" OR "GLORIA SYMPATHY", ETC. ETC.
IF YOU HAVE ANY QUESTIONS AT ALL, PLEASE ASK!
THANK YOU SO MUCH, MY DEAR FRIENDS. YOUR SUPPORT MEANS THE WORLD TO ME!
-GLORIA

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***ONE OF THE MOST TOUCHING GIFTS I HAVE EVER RECEIVED! 

http://bln.gs/b/296vax

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JOYCIE'S FINAL GIFT TO ME:  http://bln.gs/b/28m1kp

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New Stamps!!!~~ *STAMP MAKERS CREATIONS GROUP* Founder: By Mousey (Rita) http://blingee.com/group/83718-Stamp-Makers-Creations ❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤ *~~~~~~~~~* Thank you for using my stamps :)

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ALL OF MY STAMPS CAN BE FOUND UNDER "GLORIA"

                           ☸ڿڰۣڿڰۣ ♥HUGS&KISSES♥ ڿڰۣڿڰۣ☸ 

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rainbowgyrl

rainbowgyrl says:

2 days ago
I know your busy BUT didn't want to leave you out!!!

I hope You will join & have FUN!!

http://blingee.com/challenge/view/9076-Surreal-Challenge
SHAKENBAKE32

SHAKENBAKE32 says:

4 days ago
OHHHHHH YES ***GIVE ME A GLASS OF WINE (BIG ONE) AND A LAMPSHADE AND I'M GOOD TO GO.
MarilouKitten

MarilouKitten says:

7 days ago
Yes darling Gloria I did receive your email and answered it !

At the moment I'm experiencing a true " Burn out" thus I 'm staying quiet at home trying to do all my works I had neglected ! Well I could go in a special center to help for OM GOSH never had medical help since all this time. It would only be to rest as I dont't trust docs with all the bullshit pills they give ! All this is so chemical and dangerous ! Better practicing the Ho'oponopono! It's just wonderful! Much Love girlfriend xo
robbierob1961

robbierob1961 says:

8 days ago
Thank You for the great comment!!  on my Cat in a Cup blingee..Thank You!
topazblue

topazblue says:

11 days ago
hehe ohhhh now I get it lol glad we cleared that up... my curiousity was killing me haha
Take care sweetness (((hugs)))
BBB338

BBB338 says:

12 days ago
This is from Alia: 

seasoned402 says:
about 5 hours ago
Hello my friend ! Happy Mother's Day to you.
My laptop is broke :( so I am not able to be on right now can you please post something on my profile letting that lets people know I have not left Blingee lol I miss you guys
Hugs
Alia
topazblue

topazblue says:

13 days ago
Hi Gloria, thanks for the feedback on my blingee :) So glad you think its pretty but just wondering what you meant about it having no blue in it? Is that your favourite colour or something? Ive been sitting here trying to figure out what you meant lol
rainbowgyrl

rainbowgyrl says:

13 days ago
Your neighbor is moving. Not to a different place, BUT to a different building. My building is being made into 2 floors. [sigh] Not on as much busy packing. 

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